Nonkilling 13 | Ceiling for the Sky

I saw the face of God

A mouth and a pool of blood

At 9 in the morning

After sleep

In a bathtub

A body can make you think

That colors obtain in things

Like Maggie Nelson said:

"The color inside of you."

Can I feel nostalgia for

A death I will never know?

The silence of silence

This is all that I've ever wanted

When I woke up in the tub

Invisible wrecked ships

Circled around my head

A voice screamed:

"You wouldn't want it

If you see the pain in the anteroom

You wouldn't applaud it

Nothing on this side was built for you."

And now you're laughing

Would you laugh when they play it all back

And in the movie of your life

You only speak in one scene

And when the doors opens you say:

"I've been thinking about it my life long"

And when they ask what you mean

Your lips are moving

But the mic's not on

Thought it was a pool of blood

But then when the cameras stopped

The hole thing evaporates

A voice with no body shouts:

"The money has all run out

What we used to call a job

Is now handled by machines

You can die in peace!"

But you wouldn't want it

If you see the pain in the anteroom

You wouldn't applaud it

Nothing on this side was built for you

And now you're laughing

Would you laugh when they play it all back

And in the movie of your life

You only speak in one scene?

And when the doors opens you say:

"I've been thinking about it my life long"

And when they ask you what you mean

Your lips are moving

But the mic's not on

What have you been trying to day?

Is this a joke or some kind of mistake?

No one's counting the days

Until your whole little body becomes

Even less that decay