Bastards

I hope this finds you well

A father lost and mother dear

The family that's kept me here

Heartless and cold, and I've learned it well

How to lose everything

How to push you away

How to lie when I say

"I never raised a hand to the ones I love."

Now look at how

You beg and pray

For your god and his grace

To keep you safe

To save you from me

My broken spirit and back

My calloused, shaking hands

The ache I carry in me

My grief and skeletons

The weight you carried inside

A weight that held my bloodline

Black out the sunlight

I count these burdens as mine

And still all you see is that bastard in me

And still all you see is that bastard in me

Believing in hell

A father lost and mother dear

The family that I squandered here

Heartless and cold, and I forgot it all

How to lose everything

How to push you away

How to lie when I say

"I never raised a hand to the ones I love."

But I remember how

You begged and prayed

For your god and his grace

To keep you safe

To save you from me

My broken spirit and back

My calloused, shaking hands

The ache I carry in me

My grief and skeletons

The weight you carried inside

A weight that held my bloodline

Black out the sunlight

I count these burdens as mine

And still all I see is that bastard in me