I Remember Painfully

I remember how we looked at the embryo in the jar

together

And I remember how we stood talking in the store to

each other

It was love

But what is it now

It’s pain

I remember your face and I remember your grace

I remember, I remember, I just remember

And I remember how we laughed at the jokes that we had

between us

And I remember how we talked and mocked each other

blatantly

It was fun

But what is it now

It’s pain

And I remember how you smiled

And that light that was in your eyes

And I remember how pretty you were always a pleasant

surprise

It was nice

But what is it now

It’s pain

I remember your face and I remember your grace

I remember, I remember, I just remember

And I remember you at the funeral shaking hands and

hanging coats

And I remember you standing pregnant at the art room

It was weird

But what is it now

It’s pain

I remember your face and I remember your grace

I remember, I remember, I just remember

When I saw you at the department store

I said “have a nice baby”

You were standing happy, I left you with that smile on

your face

Years later I was hitchhiking and that mortician picked

me up

Then he said to me, he said “good luck”

I remember how we looked at the embryo in the jar

together

And I remember how we stood talking in the store to

each other

It was love

But what is it now

It’s pain